Since I already put this on facebook and twitter I thought I might as well add it here. Lilacs are my very favorite flower. You should have smelled them on my walk this morning! Michigan has some beautiful Spring flowers.
I saw a movie with my sister-in-law last night and it made me laugh so hard my stomach hurt... on so many levels! I could relate more than I'd like to admit. Maybe it's just me, but you should really see Bridesmaids if you haven't already. Parts of it were distasteful but I think you can handle it.
Afterwards I did some major soul-searching. There are some things I need to break free from in my life and to surrender because it's making me a mess. I'm afraid I'm starting to make a total idiot out of myself.
I'm going to start the Bible Study that has been sitting on my shelf upstairs for too long: Breaking Free. If I didn't already own the study I would love to do it on my iPad.
I love offering to take pictures for other people, especially if they seem too shy to ask. I love to wake up early and sneak out by myself for coffee. I love getting recommendations for restaurants from locals. They never let us down. I love when it's real warm first thing. I love continental breakfasts. I love the freedom of riding a bike, especially the kind that have baskets on the front, no hand brakes and you can ride with flip flops and cut off jeans. Jazz music and white wine by the glass. The smell of the flowers in this garden. I love driving the rental car and being in control. I love freshly squeezed orange juice and the smell of bacon. I love bagels with too much cream cheese. I love taking pictures so I can take home the memories. I love that my husband loves to be around me constantly; When I need my alone time as much as he needs to be with me! God is so funny to bring two totally opposites together. I love my iPad, the internet and a cell phone in my back pocket that sends pictures! I love the sun; only wish it loved me back! More later.
Well, almost a week after my hearing I still can't believe how naive I am at my age. I seriously didn't think people could lie under oath. I thought they would get zapped like a dog crossing their electric fence. The other day somebody told me that everybody does it. I was shocked! That doesn't make it right. At the very least I thought (or wished) their noses would grow when they didn't tell the truth.
I also can't wrap my mind around the fact that someone (very important) left her cell phone turned on during the whole thing.
I shouldn't be surprised by what a woman will do to get the approval of a man, especially when it's her boss. I find it very sad. I wouldn't have wanted to be in her shoes last Friday and I really wouldn't want to be in hers today... or on the day I receive my decision. I don't mean to sound so vague, but I think it's best that way.
"Am I now trying to win the approval of human beings, or of God? Or am I trying to please people? If I were still trying to please people, I would not be a servant of Christ." (Gal 1:10)
Lord, please help me to take the log out of my own eye so I will stop focusing on others. And please forgive those who hopefully don't know what they do.
I will be meditating on this verse these next few days and nights as I have a few things on my mind. Some questions will finally be answered by the end of this week.
"Let us hold unswervingly to the hope we profess, for he who promised is faithful." Hebrews 10:23
"Unswervingly." I love that word. When my nephew and his son, Christian and I went to Jeepers this past weekend, they played a motorcycle race video game. Christian (5 years old) could hardly reach the throttle and he was supposed to lean from side to side to stay on track. If he didn't he would swerve and hit the side. He was not strong enough to lean the heavy motorcycle so his dad stood by his side, took control and did the tilting for him. It got me thinking how much help I need to stay on track, especially when life feels heavy. I need to remember that God is faithful to His promises and I must hold "unswervingly" to the hope that only He can give. I don't want to get off track and lose my focus. Everything will work out according to His plan and it is good! It's one of those weeks I'll be taking one day at a time.
So glad I'm not on my own. He'll be with me to fight my fight.
