Thirty years ago I married my kids' dad. (I'd be lying if I didn't tell you it crossed my mind more than once lately.) This July Linc and I celebrated our 13th Anniversary and it also marked the year that we surpassed the amount of years I was married to my kids' dad. I am here to tell you that it is only by the Grace of God that I am healed; and I can barely even see the scars left behind. When I saw this amazing photo posted and stepped back to analyze how I felt, it didn't sting one single bit.
I can honestly say that I couldn't have chosen a better father for my kids.
I remember when M. & J. were young it seemed I had to... BEG him to play sports with them and play with them. At the time I attributed it to his age, since he was quite a bit older than me. I won't go into all of the details, but... it really made me happy when I saw the photo in this post and when I heard the excitement in my son's voice when he was telling me all the details how together they discussed each shot and in the end they took second place (and came close to winning!).
When I step back and consider if I never would have gone through what I did, I never would have had to learn to totally rely on God for His comfort, His healing, His constant presence, His guidance, His security, His arms wrapped around me, His patience, His control of my tongue, His gift of the people He brought into my life or His loving kindness.
It was so nice to hear my ex-mother-in-law's voice on bluetooth yesterday. She is the most loving Granny and I'm so thankful for her.
This morning when I was on my elliptical machine (It's strange how loudly God speaks to me when I am in that room!), I heard this song on my playlist. I heard it completely different than I ever had before. He is God... ;)
He Ain't The Leaving Kind by Rascal Flatts
They tried their best to drag him out
Of a courthouse down in montgomery
Now they want to kick him out of school
And take him off our money
They can take those words off of paper and stone
But he aint gone, no
He ain't the leavin' kind
He'd never walk away
Even from those who dont believe
And wanna leave him behind
He ain't the leavin' kind
She stayed mad at him for a lot of years
For taking her husband
Started losing her faith and thinking that
Her life meant nothin
But when she looks at those kids
She raised all by herself
She knows she had some help
Yeah she knows
He ain't the leavin' kind
He'd never walk away
Even from those who don't believe
And wanna leave him behind
He ain't the leavin' kind
No matter what you do
No matter where you go he's
Always right there
With you
Even from those who don't believe
And wanna leave him behind
He ain't the leavin' kind
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"Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the Lord your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you.” ~Deuteronomy 31:6
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