He would do it again

So you might wonder... How will this picture affect me? Will what Jesus went through all those years ago change my perspective or is it just another holiday come and gone? 

I had such a difficult time trying to decide which church service to attend for Easter. Satan has been working on me big-time. I've made myself dizzy jumping from one denomination to another; and worse yet, I have gotten out of the habit of going at all. I can't believe I have to tell you that I almost didn't even go today (on Easter!). Satan was close to winning but I'm happy to tell you he didn't; God won again! I got choked up when I heard a song that reminded me again of my family who is with Jesus today. "I Am The Bread of Life" brought a few more tears (since I could hear my dad's voice singing) that allowed a little more healing. I'm pretty sure I was exactly where He wanted me to be for today.  As I knelt in the pew I asked God to invade my life. I honestly don't think He cares about where I Worship. I think He cares mostly about these three little words: Invade. My. Life.  I'm writing it here in case I forget. And the next time I get confused I hope someone out there will remind me to continue begging Him to come and take over. 

I love having a blog to dump these kinds of thoughts. I'm sure many think the whole wide world doesn't care or need to know what is going on in my heart. But since I'm in the mood to be authentic I want to share something else that you might not know. During these times when God may seem distant He hasn't moved; I have. Did you get that? When I'm struggling over something and it seems God is nowhere to be found it is me. I have made the choice to go it alone. He hasn't moved; I have. 

When I close my eyes and see Jesus hanging there with the light shining on Him I am reminded that death is dark and God shines His light to give us Hope and to make all things new. Do you know anyone who would die for you? I trust He would do it again. I am renewing my Faith here tonight. I'm going to open my heart and share how He invades my life a little more often.

Happy Easter!

By Faith... Angie