Definitely not just a movie or a book.

Every year during Lent I feel the need to watch The Passion Of The Christ, so I can experience what He went through. For some reason it was more difficult to watch this year. I almost had to turn it off. Lately I have been in a bit of a funk, so it was exactly what I needed. During the movie I had a few thoughts I wanted to consider.

First of all, how on earth did the guys who inflicted the punishment on Him laugh the whole time? Did they? Or was it just in the movie? As a parent I remember how difficult it was to punish my children even if it was completely necessary. The laughing was really bothering me!

In the beginning was Jesus afraid of Satan? He looked scared. Again, was that just Hollywood? It got me thinking ---> Am I "scared" of Satan? If I'm being totally honest I would admit that I am. I'm even afraid to have _____ in the house because I can't be trusted with it! If I am a true follower of Christ I should be able to look him straight in the eyes and tell him to get the hell away from me.  I shouldn't be intimidated by him in the least or believe any of his obviously stupid lies.

Every time I watch it I cannot fathom watching my son or daughter endure that kind of pain. I don't know how mothers can watch their daughters give birth to their grandchildren. That's a whole other story. But I do know it's hard watching my children in any kind of pain or hardship. Hard is an understatement!

I am reminded again to love my enemies and to pray for them; for they know not what they do. I am inspired to want to be a better friend, sister, mother and wife. I want to lay down my life for them and get rid of the selfishness that comes so naturally. I also want to help others carry their burdens.

Although I've seen the movie many times I still hope it goes differently this time. I want the same ending, but a different journey. It's just too much.

I have failed miserably trying to give something up for Lent. For me I think I need to sacrifice something instead of trying to do extra loving acts of kindness but I rarely do.  After watching this movie I am  disappointed in myself that I can't even give up _______ when He gave up His life for me. It's not asking much.

Lord, Your story is not just another movie to enjoy (sort of; not really) on a Sunday night. Let it be life-changing for me and anyone who stumbles upon this blog.  Your Word is not just another book on the shelf either. Let it change us and let us never be the same when we hold it in our hands. Make it change our heart. In Jesus' name.